The diary that's never been read: 2011

Friday, November 18, 2011

There are decisions to make about life

Sometimes life takes you to edges where you must make a decision to differenciate between life and struggle. It maybe be the last decision you make to your vagabond life. Personally I wasn't of that tipe until a disaster hit me so bad that took my ways of dreaming away. I couldn't proceed ignoring this incidents. Became hopeless, was at stake what to do next. I felt I need to overcome these. I needed to live for some people who cared for me and rely on me.

They are my parents. I feel so much ashamed when they takes care of me while I am actually letting them down and they dont know anything about this. They are believing on me all the way of life while actually I am giving up and pretending I am alright.

I can't endure pain. If I go thorough it, always seek relief.Can I make them smile? I have to.

How could I cheat them. Ammu abbu I can't say, but I really sorry for me. I dream one day I will become your best boy again. I HAVE TO.

Saturday, October 29, 2011

TV Show addiction!

Recently I had fall in love with a tv series, yes, but not seeing it on tv but my computer. It's name is The Big Bang Theory. It's featuring 3scientist and one engineer friends. They are the kind of nerd you wouldn't dare to talk to. The show is full of their hilarious kind of scientific chatting. Featuring Sheldon Cooper, Leonard Holfsteder, Rajesh Kootrapali and Howard Wolowitz.They work at the California Institute of Technology. Sheldon is a theoritical physicist, Leonar is an experimental physicist, Raj is an astrophysicist and Howard is a mechanical engineer.

Why this blog is full of personal daily life shit?

I write to this blog only to swap keeping a diary. Sometimes I post very private informations. Why is that? Do I intend to pretend to be a celebrity or something? The answer is: nope, I do not. Rather I intend to make my blog private very soon (facebook says it as 'Only Me') or friends who have invitations from me(Like facebook says: Who can see your posts? I select 'Only friends').

Disclosure of these private information is dangerous, I know that. But, I wanna know what happens at the end. It is very nice to become appreciated by the readers, getting comments etc, but Sorry if you expect too much, it's not something that blow your mind.

You can feel acting creepy and what do you think? Isn't it interesting to know about anyone else's personal life??

Don't expect too much here, too, coz I know what I'm doing. ;)

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Student Life: Sometimes over frustrating

After studying for long 9 months, some incidents changed the pace of my studies. "What is that?" the question arises. But it's not 'what' that matters it's the 'why'.

I have been asking myself for a long time, am I an idiot? The answer is not simple for anyone. I have changed another of my question from ''How long it's gonna be be happen?" to "How should I stop this?". Eventually as always I get a series of answers, but I can't follow them for a long time. Here if 'long time' would become at least 7days, it would be great!

First of all, I have lack of soical sense that leads to mutual misunderstanding problems.

Then, I always hope when I lag most, people would wait for me and lag. Hilarious isn't it. But i guess I'm like this.

I'ma put on a stop on these first. Blogging aboul own problems isn't always easy, but It might help to some extent.

Let's see

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Relationships are mysterious, stays between love and hate

I have a nice girl I like to hang out with, she's my cute lovebird. I see her once in every month more or less. Everything is just perfect with her. But the problem is, we love other too much. That's why most of our time passes fighting each other. First it starts with a rude word from any of us. Then it becomes severe by the time passes. I feel so much frustated sometimes. That leads me to turn off my cell or something like that. Then other becomes more and more angry. But the most amazing thing is that after having a all day longer fight, we suddenly feel so tired and then love to have a hug from each other.....

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Eid-Ul-Fitre festival ahead, having some shopping

Last two days were the busiest day of this loooong vacation. I hoped that I will make a good piece of choice of buying a new kind of shirt and pant. Yep, I successfully did that in pants.
Now planning for some good place to visit and jerk off the clumsiness soon. My birthday ahead and recently I found a very good idea to impress my friends.
The 'Pach Vai Restaurant" would play a great part in it ;)

What about Eid day roaming????
What could be the place?
I'm just curious about 'the' girl.... What could she offer me this year. I hope she will make a wise choice. Won't let me endure any pain.

Oh, by the by, I wish I could learn 3 new English words daily. It took Robert Bruce 7 years to win the battle, why can't I? I'm not on war. :P

Saturday, August 13, 2011

Yes, it is being harder

Days are passing and I am suddenly realising that It's very hard to recall a past. I intended to write an article on the arms that were used in 1971. It's getting hard. I wish anyone could give me some sources or references.

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Thinking of joining a sort of contest, lets see

One of my favourite sites, techtweets has started some sort of tech blogging contest with attractive prizes! I'm just looking forward to it. I didn't care about it at first, but today after a long time visited techtweets and is amazed to know the prizes. I need a personal website and yes, there's a chance to win a site with 50GB bandwidth! Yeeah, cool. I'm on it. But, at first I need a topic that will really catch visitor's eyes and must be well written.

Now what? I have to look for a good topic and must get to writing a nice post about some technology. I am wondering which topic will put the ball into the net. Should I write about astronomy or about Gadgets? About Physics or some medical related article. I can write some good medical related article you know, being a medical student, but my heart sometimes sings for some geeky nerdie Physics stuff. Math can't do it (can't tell you why).

So? Go for it man! You can do it!

Sunday, July 24, 2011

The Rothjatra festival in Sylhet

Most of the people being theist, this Indian subcontinent is filled with religious views. Muslims, Hindus are the majority. Buddhism, Sikhism, Jainism, Christianity are other most influencing religions. Bangladesh is a muslim majority country. It is Hinduism is a colorful religion indeed, with lots of merry making during their 'Puja'. 'Dhakeswari Mandir' is the biggest of all mandirs in Bangladesh.

Rich in cultural activities like Puja, Rothjatra, Sonkranti, Tithi etc. Here in Sylhet, the Rothjatra festival has made a natural festive effect on people. A fail is held for at least one week. The fair mostly features furnitures, clothes, toys, show pieces, junk foods and yes magicians huts! The Rikabi Bazar point, beside Sylhet stadium is the place for this Rothjatra fair. The entire area becomes over crowded. People suffer traffic jam as the fair helds beside the broadway.

Thursday, July 14, 2011

The country won the imagine cup!

The microsoft imagine cup, a view to open a new era with a theme
"Imagine a world where technology helps solve the toughest problems."The United Nations Millennium Development Goals are:

Ending hunger and poverty.
Achieving primary education for everyone.
Promoting Gender quality and empowerment.
Reducing child mortality.
Improving maternal health.
Combating widespread diseases.
Ensuring environmental sustainability.

The imagine cup is awarded to students of worldwide with a view to solving these problems with the help of technology. This year it was Microsoft's turn. Competitors had to make ideas of solving those problems with the help of Microsoft's technologies.

A team from American International University, Bangladesh Has won the people's choice award this year. Team Rupture, the name goes. They were outstanding. The made a video full of life and hopes. Thanks Team rupture! You made us proud.

Team: Rapture, Project: ThirdEye

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Amazing Race asia in Bangladesh

One of the world's top rated reality game show the amazing race asia visited Bangladesh a few days before. I didn't know. I searched for the episode at google and finally in a benglali blogsite I found it.
Points to be noted:

Here one of the busy part of Bangladesh is shown for the purpose of shooting the episode, so if anyone thinks that it's the face of the whole Bangladesh, he has done a great mistake.
It's the life of the poor day-laborer that is shown on this video.
The river shown here is named Buriganga.
Dhaka is on the bank of Buriganga.

Enjoy the episode here from YOUTUBE

If you have any more questions, let me know.

The Amazing Race 17 Ep9 p1of5 Shooted in Dhaka, Bangladesh.

Friday, July 1, 2011

Worst memory of my student life

I just never can take excess pressure, most Bangladeshis are different in this context. Tomorrow it was my physiology term final examination. But I decided to skip it. It's a very hard decision for me. I worked so hard for this exam but now I just can't hold water.
Why this happened?
The preparation for the exam was very nice. It would be better because I just studied two whole card for exam. So, it was my right to gain good numbers. But, instead, I'm skipping it! WOW! I got one day off but didnt study 1st,2nd night and the intervening day. Now today at the 12th hour I started studying. That's why it has become harder. I could do it, but my bad my fate someone made it hard. Misfortune just destroyed me. In every spheres of my life. I can't event stand strong and still.
I'm feeling so sad.
I'm feeling alone.

Few minutes ago, I dream my younger brother Nasif. I just missing him so much.
I love you little brother.

Thursday, June 30, 2011

Today is a holiday, it's a Pre exam leave

Today is one of the most relaxed day in Bangladesh. With a holiday resting tomorrow, Friday, a very nice feeling charming us all. The monsoon started and it is almost the 'Ashar', the 1st month of The rainy season. Here in Bangladesh there are six seasons. Summer, Rainy season, Autumn, The late autumn or Dewy season, Winter, Spring! It's a charming weather today for a sound sleep. Father is out for his medical practice, mother is busy with nothing, sister is taking a nap, little brother is in his Cadet College(I wonder what he is doing, I'm missing him so much. It is really a day for taking a nap hugging him) and I am here, before my loving PC BLOGGING!

I have a physiology term final exam knocking at the door, but it's me, can't help being present online.

It's a wet evening, greetings!! haha. Wet greetings. Next time i will come with pictures.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

After exam stress

Here in Bangladesh, examinations are seen like ghosts. No one wants to face them. Yesterday it was my Anatomy viva of the term final examination. Studied all the night before exam. Thats what I've done wrong. It nearly killed me. I felt so nervous before teacher and yes, lack of rest added to it. At last I realized I answered only 50% of the questions. I feel it would be tough to get rid of these. Hope madam would be kind enough to help me pass.

Thursday, June 9, 2011

It's Hostel Time

After about a week I'm going back to hostel, as a traditional medical student(though non-govt medical colleges are so lame to be called as 'medical college'). Two of best pals, 'M' & 'T' will be present. Hoping it will be a great night. I want to make some note on the subject called biochemistry. We may pass some time on the roof and enjoy fresh Tea Garden Air! There is a dining which contains a small television and plays movies nearly all the time. But we have so little time to enjoy. Back to work (gulp! study!) ...

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Morning in a holiday

Friday is a holiday in most cases in a Muslim country in Asia. Today is that friday and woke up late at 9.00 am at morning usually I have to wake up at 7.00am. Father is a doctor, is not rushing towards his workplace Sylhet MAG Medical College & Hospital, rather he is enjoying TV for a while. Mom made delicious meal.
Now, I'm browsing the internet for a while. Maybe going to bath for the friday Jumma prayer.

What happens in Private medical colleges in Sylhet, Bangladesh

Today my Biochemistry lecturer Dr. Shantona Das Ananda was baded farewell by us, 17th Batch of Jalalabad Ragib-Rabeya Medical College,Sylhet,Bangladesh. We arranged a farewell Cake. She was surprised and became nostalgic. She thanked us and said she would miss us. Three lecturers from Physiology, Dr. Opu, Dr. Imrana & Dr. Rafi gave her a present on behalf of us.

Here, in Asia, teachers are the most respected persons. Departure of any teacher is very touchy event. We will always cherish the memory of our dear teacher.
May god bless her and she becomes successful in future life.