But decisions for life ahead

Sometimes you know that anyone attached to your life gets infected by your venom. You fall back, think for a while, and say yes I must hide myself and look forward to a better future for those who still loves me. That's what's bothering me.
So, those I love, please forgive me for the man I've become. Forgive me please.

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Life can be exhausting!

Few days back I thought time could be amazing on this Pahela Baishakh. But as it is planned by nature that I ain't having any sweet from in my life anymore, I didn't get any friend to help me arrange stalls on this great occasion. Thanks everyone for making me feel what I felt.
And be sure I will never forget this.

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Things have changed in the world so rapidly, not in me

Everyday I'm struggling with my relationship. I don't really know how it will end but its true that me and my girlfriend are together for 6years and it will never be easy to live without seeing each other. She loves me so much after so many years and she thinks I'm the world for her. How can I ever forget her. She is lovely, cute and ever green.

I love you, M.

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What makes a man a good leader?

For the last few days, I've been dealing with a serious problem of my friends. The problem started with local students (sylhety) and the students from outside Sylhet. In Sylhet people are very protective of their traditions and family. This thing created impacts on the other things like their ability to accept people of other districts as good colleagues or classmates! Yeah, I know it's kind of gross, but literally things are changing.

Our class had already been through such kind of problems from the beginning of our journey at JRRMC. This lasted for about a whole year. Last 2days were different. There's a saying that everything has a solution. But someone has to come forward for this. WE came forward. The day before yesterday hostel boys decided to go mild on the locals (I'm a local here too, but it's better to act as a family to me). So, they came, I brought them to hostel, called on a meeting and the result was as expected. The boys acted matured. Instead of arguing, we talked openly, took steps and you know what?

We left the room with joy and brotherhood in mind.

May peace live forever.

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Today is a day of remembrance

Today is a day of remembrance. I brought my pc to my hostel room with a good internet connection. Let's see how many days I can keep this here. It's too boring without a pc. I love to let my time go away with a pc.
Some updates:

• I think I'm gonna appear at Biochem items.
• I think I'm gonna stay at hostel now.
• I think I'm losing it. What? My will to quit smoking.
• I think I'm in love with m more than anytime.
• I have to plan something to get the money to repair my phone.
• And yes, I have a plan with m, I think she's gonna rock.
  

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There are decisions to make about life

Sometimes life takes you to edges where you must make a decision to differenciate between life and struggle. It maybe be the last decision you make to your vagabond life. Personally I wasn't of that tipe until a disaster hit me so bad that took my ways of dreaming away. I couldn't proceed ignoring this incidents. Became hopeless, was at stake what to do next. I felt I need to overcome these. I needed to live for some people who cared for me and rely on me.

They are my parents. I feel so much ashamed when they takes care of me while I am actually letting them down and they dont know anything about this. They are believing on me all the way of life while actually I am giving up and pretending I am alright.

I can't endure pain. If I go thorough it, always seek relief.Can I make them smile? I have to.

How could I cheat them. Ammu abbu I can't say, but I really sorry for me. I dream one day I will become your best boy again. I HAVE TO.

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TV Show addiction!

Recently I had fall in love with a tv series, yes, but not seeing it on tv but my computer. It's name is The Big Bang Theory. It's featuring 3scientist and one engineer friends. They are the kind of nerd you wouldn't dare to talk to. The show is full of their hilarious kind of scientific chatting. Featuring Sheldon Cooper, Leonard Holfsteder, Rajesh Kootrapali and Howard Wolowitz.They work at the California Institute of Technology. Sheldon is a theoritical physicist, Leonar is an experimental physicist, Raj is an astrophysicist and Howard is a mechanical engineer.

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Why this blog is full of personal daily life shit?

I write to this blog only to swap keeping a diary. Sometimes I post very private informations. Why is that? Do I intend to pretend to be a celebrity or something? The answer is: nope, I do not. Rather I intend to make my blog private very soon (facebook says it as 'Only Me') or friends who have invitations from me(Like facebook says: Who can see your posts? I select 'Only friends').

Disclosure of these private information is dangerous, I know that. But, I wanna know what happens at the end. It is very nice to become appreciated by the readers, getting comments etc, but Sorry if you expect too much, it's not something that blow your mind.

You can feel acting creepy and what do you think? Isn't it interesting to know about anyone else's personal life??

Don't expect too much here, too, coz I know what I'm doing. ;)

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